I am a geek. With a capital "G". It's true, and I'm learning to admit it. I love love love math. Always have. How, you are probably wondering, can I even claim to NOT be a Geek when I love math and went to school to earn a couple of math degrees. Well, in my mind, I am not a Geek because I don't wear a pocket protector (absolutely no offense to any pocket protector wearing geeks or non-geeks). And because if you just met me, you would never think "Geek" from my appearance (what exactly does a Geek look like anyway?) or from most of my actions. But every once in a while, the words "I just love my calculator" (which is a TI-81 from back when I was in high school) slip unwittingly out of my mouth. And then I have to at least pretend to admit my geekness.
So, with that confession behind me, it should come as no surprise to you all, that I love numbers. Numbers, the theory of numbers specifically, is my favorite branch of mathematics. The more abstract and seemingly useless, the better! Numbers, however, happen to also come in handy once in a while. Like when you are balancing your checkbook. I have the utmost respect for numbers, but when they don't add up, they start to wear on my patience. They should add up. It just makes sense. But sometimes they don't.
Today, was one such day. I am, or should I say was, one of those people who cannot rest until every last stray penny has been found hanging loose in the pocketbook that is my checkbook. I study and scour until I have located the mistake, even if it takes me hours or days... even if it is only for 2 cents. Today, I did not. Today, after about a month of on and off looking for a stray couple dollars that somehow jumped out of my checkbook, or got lost under that little staple holding the pages together in that little fold, I have learned to let go and move on. Yes. I have let go of that error that cannot be found. I have adjusted the total to compensate for the mistake.
This was a very painful process for me. Another reason I know I am a Geek. But I did it. And now I can move on...
... to putting my children to bed and sitting on the couch and enjoying a movie!!! I think I deserve it. :o)